我

我的沉默，不是畏惧， 而是种忍耐。
人说，忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。
我，从不畏惧风浪，也想拥有自己的一片蓝空。
我不是只病猫，所以别再惹我。

jalan kayu for supper! 28th feb

met up wif bok, bui & ken for supper at jalan kayu! stoooopid ken, b4 we could catch up much, henpeck him go fetch gf... sibuai 重色轻友! always like tt de leh! unknowingly, all e unis r having breaks together! sianz... cant even haf a Bball game for e either sundays, & outta e 9 days, i could only haf 1 nite for my kakis... grrrr.... i wanna play bball wif kaiwen, watch soccer wif rod, play mj wif yb, glenn & ngee, go eat rubbish wif bok, go ktv wif ba. xiaohei & chai ling! bet they hated me when i always reply their sms tt i'm not free! GRRRRR!!!

batu caves 25th - 27th feb

embarked on a trip to batu caves wif jovin & meishan, though i din really enjoy e itinerary of climbing & abseiling (i still prefer to trek la!) companionship made e trip really a memorable one!

anw... these 3 guys on e left were foreign students, 2 germans & 1 indian fr india. on a personal note, i juz dun enjoy any trips wif foreigners... dunno y... i juz dun like... luckily e ah neh is really quite a nice chap to chat wif! e 2 ang moh can juz go & die!

here we r! Batu Caves at Ulu Yam, located somewhere off KL, m'sia. dunno who's having e 千手观音 pic tt we took tt morning! freaking nice!

e cave was really big but nothing very magnificient... but e guide who was leading us does haf tonnes to talk & he goes non-stop! fucking shut e fuck up sia! i almost got bored to death hearing e stories of how e australia cockroaches is to travel to e land of KL...

there was this stretch in e caves tt last 50 feet long tt we haf to go down on all fours to crawl thru e damn small holes in e cave! & this is e 1st ever cave tt i went to tt shoes r compulsory! oh my poor asics! i can hear them cry & tear thru e mud as i dig hard into e soil while wiggling thru e holes! GRRRR!!!

mei shan e chin-dian! (1/2 chinese, 1/2 indian)



li si e badminton pro! mai siao siao! sea games winner in odac trip k! odac biz mag subcomm wor!




me conquering e 6A climb wif my high step!




alrite! day 1 ended wif a hearty meal!

found this poster at e dorm tt we stayed in, which says, 'preserve this. or it will be us who buys water from s'pore' SMLJ!

went by a freaking nice lake while on e way to e waterfall for canyoning! this bunch of participants shall be called e climbers. din really chat wif them much... too kandang for me liao!

knn! this is e 1st odac trip tt i ever embark on tt travels in 7-seaters! sibuai luxurious sia!

auntie wan ting & me! dunno y e fuck we juz keep luffing thru out e descend down e waterfall! dunno is i funny or she funny sia!

pumpfest! haha! 1 of e most fulfiling part of e trip is tt i got to noe e pumpfest comm much more than b4. though till now, i yet to be able to differentiate sarah fr sharon, at least they get to noe how i am like ba. chengzhi is not at all e gd boy tt i saw during FOOT 07 & e twins r real irritants, unlike their innocent looks. wan ting is worst! so horny! keep wanting to c jovin's undies! hope tt this trip gives them a much better sense of belonging to odac ba!

e sleepy jovin at 6.30 am in e morning!

ABC dry run 24th feb

rite after e nite cycling, e following day was Adventure Bike Challenge dry run! went cycling thru e whole route of ABC together wif adsports comm, travelling fr ecp to changi to tampines & back to ecp. lucky i fit fit, can tahan thru all e way! while cycling past e pasir ris area wif grace, gd old memories of ATC 07 flooded our minds as we got reminded of all e crazy cycling tt we did back in Lor Halus!

looking at e peeps of this comm, think we will face a big prob for FOOT as all of them would be gd enuff to compete for being GLs, but there could only be 8!

wah! i nv knew tt ecp on sunday is fucking filled wif gals wif perky ass! omfg! think its time to train up my skating skills & go on ecp tour every sun liao! such a feast for e eyes! cannot forgive myself to miss sia!

FOOT nite cycling recce1 23rd feb

wootz! after a year of rest, i'm back on e road again wif mike, yonghan & tung for FOOT nite cycling recce! getting back e feelings & excitement for e war ahead! however, something is missing for me, yali no longer by my side to gif me guidance anymore. miss those times when we will go for run at e SRC b4 e bike recce, juz to train up our stamina so tt we could fulfil e role of being e CGL for FOOT. though e companions had changed, but seeing e growth of e old-timers, FOOT 08 would definitely be a better one!

its rather fun to c FOOT comm at work, its even more fun to work wif them! this comm is always so spontaneous & enthu, wif peeps like junjie, jing chu & si shan who r always ready at their learning curves. wif e experienced mike & e gd call of command fr e gong gong wei ling, i c so much potential in e growth of e comm.

m'sia wif stoopid bok 17th feb

haha! decided to buy a pair of oakley shades wif my ban luck winnings! got bok bok to go down city square at JB to shop for a pair! sorry mike, yong han & guang rong! i really dun trust yr taste! haha! brought bok to eat at amany place in JB! i love making her fat! wahahaha! i'm sorry if no guy wants u... i wun want too! i'll let u be godma of my kids k!

nice not? its a pair of half jacket wif polarised irridium gold lens!

anw, returned to hall e following nite & there's this stooopid moth which kept kissing my smelly sandals for e whole of e nite, dunno wats its prob sia! they say it muz be some gal tt had once fell in love wif me & had passed away... & now she's back...

CNY 2008 wif 23rd frogs!

wahahaha!! time to rock & roll! gathering for CNY at quek's place on e 9th, equals to nothing but gamble! once again, i relive e title of e ban luck king! i'm sorry guys.... i really nv wear yellowish dirty red undies wif holes for CNY... i swear! wah! this yr, every gathering tt i goes to, seems tt e topic of Edison Chen Sex Scandal will be e talk over every gambling table... tt bastard really quite pro sia!

on e 16th, it was at andy's place, and e talk of e town continues, i think by den, ah guan already had e full complilation of e scandals pics liao! as usual, alcohol always gets out of hands, same old shit every yr... just like i win ban luck again! wootz!

CNY 2008

as i grow older, seems tt i get more distanced fr my relatives, got less topics to chat on, no longer interested in their life, regardless my paternal or maternal side. though my cousins fr my mum side were all of my age, i really haf nothing much in common wif them, but i'm always forced to build up e ambience within e family which is such a tiring thing to do... hmm if i can choose to, i'll rather not go visiting at my mum's side. really quite sianz... as for dad's side, due to e bad blood of e previous generation, relations wif my cousins will not be like wat it used to be. BUT, as they were all so much older (youngest is 39!) i got lots of niece & nephews to play wif! erm... think bully is a more suitable word for my behavior towards them! haha digging dark secrets bout their love affairs through their SMS kept me entertained for e whole nite for e 1st day of new yr! nothing beats e thrill of uncovering who their love ones really is! think they will hate me la! WAHAHAHAHA!!!

anw, this my eldest sis wif my youngest niece, 13 months old only! everyone claims tts she's so cute but i beg to differ! this gal no backbone/principles de! she plays wif everyone! i dun like kids tt way! i like them to be inert to others but only reactive to me! wahahahah!!!

main comm CNY reunion dinner 5th feb

ops! somehow i haven gotten hold of e pics taken for our main comm dinner! anw! e nite of steam boat was nothing but full of cock! eh.... wrong! shd be full of balls! this definitely muz be e one & only steamboat tt i'll haf tt has so many restrictions! no pork, no seafood, not even any animals wif 2 or 4 legs!! darling jovin & wei song went down boon lay sheng siong wif me to buy food for e ntie! we had such a hard time la! this cannot, tt cannot! end up, we bought nothing but tonnes of balls! e 3 of us definitely proved e fact tt new age guys like us rulz over e kitchen sia! all e gals can go fly kite sia! all e food we had for e nite is we 3 guys pack de horz! WAHAHAHA!!! shall go get e pics liao! we really had trays of balls!

pre CNY 13/14 reunion party! 4th feb

CNY 2008 was nothing but a big big rush for me! everything was juz so unprepared! dun even haf time to shop for my red T-shirts for ban luck sia! anw! had a small gathering sessions filled wif booze, pizzas, bah kwa & yu sheng wif kakis from hall 13/14! wootz! partyyyy!

stooopid wei han! finally brought his secret gf to light! so it was zhang mei tt his having affair wif... wtf! need to be so secretive not!

i oso got gf! see! i oso got ruyan!wahahahahaha!!!!

sorry, i din do a good job

'belaying is e golden rice bowl of ODAC, if u dun even know it, dun dream of doing anything else' & 'RAMPS is e backbone of all activities' these lines definitely will bring back some gd memories of my old mates in AJ ODAC. yep, they r e infamous lines of lim kok wee. back den was days when i was drilled in doing proper proposals & planning, at e same time mastering all soughts of technical hard skills which r of relevance to outdoor activities. he nv fails to find fault in our 'thorough proposals' & we always fails at his qns of 'wat if...'. lim's words were harsh & oppressive, yet they make gd sense when we now individually take flights in our own field. RAMPS - Risk Assessment & Management Plans System, its covers basically People, Environment, Equipment & Process. i only get to fully appreciate e system a couple of yrs after i graduate from 'A' levels.

lets take a good look at belaying, n qn all e safety factor in it. firstly, wats e competency of e belayer?(People) wat ground is he belaying on? will he trip? is e wall tt e climber is working on safe enuff?(Environment) is e belay device old? an ATC or fig. 8? is e harness worn out?(Equipment) lastly, how is e climb conducted? is there anchor-man or backup belay?(Process) as i age & get to experience more, RAMPS becomes a second nature le. wif all these skills & knowledge, i tot i have a great deal to share for event planning, recces, conducting of event, tackling technical probs, estimation of budget, outdoor related networks, rational thinking & ground decision making.

to my great disppointment, i could only serve a very small fraction of e club wif so little tt i had. sorry boss, there's so many areas tt i failed to cover for u. i'm definitely less sensitive compared to my peers, a lot of time, i dun share e same feelings others felt, thus i fail to take care of others emotions. i failed as a VP. till date, i'm still drenched in my storm back 1/2 a yr ago, there r those who had reservations for me & vice versa, hence i cant reach out to all. i failed again. i noe i haf an aura which others shun away fr esp. when i reason outthings of wat shd be done & wat shd not, hence less share wif me wat they r doing, thus i'm not being at e noe for everything within e club, i cant make informed decision or assist munir in them. i failed 1 more time. at times i dun share e same believes as boss, therefore unable to defend or stand to support his decision, which is very impt to e club decision making process, i failed badly. there were many things tt i tot i could make a change to, but i had hold backs like whether it will be a welcomed decision, i start to loose confidence in myself. i'm no longer fit to be e VP. frens said i need not be so hard on myself, but if i cant even aid in overseeing e club, wat e fuck am i doing den! there's no way tt i think i shd lower my self expectation, its only rite tt i shd not be failing in all these aspects, which i am. bet i got many more areas of failures which i've yet to realise. sorry, i din do a good job.