xiaohua's cock cock fren - xiao ming

xiaohua : eh gal... anw really sorry leh... today really din mean to make u paiseh de... sorry ar... buy u teh peng k!

xiao ming : haha! nvm la. paiseh awhile only. i dun drink teh peng one! milo peng pls! haha

xiaohua : wah piang! grow up can! milo r for small kids de!

xiao ming : haha! dun care! milo peng & strawberry lollipop! who ask u make me so paiseh!

xiaohua : wah! u think i wat! exams goodie bag ar! anyhow add de! haha! but for xiao ming, u want e moon i also get!

xiao ming : haha! why would i want e moon? haha. oh ya! can u add cornflakes into e goodie bag too? e colourful one! very yummy de! haha!

xiaohua : muz put everything in one M1 bag den some more muz add maggie mee & writing pad right! need women's mag a not?

xiao ming : but i'm singtel user.. so can u put in helloshop bag? i dun need magazines & writing pad... haha. how about ma mee instead of maggie mee? haha

xiaohua : haha! if i put in 8 days & I zhou kan u sure damn high 1 lor! make u paiseh suddenly seems like a major crime sia!

bla bla bla...

haha! really cant stand xiao ming! everyday she's juz full of funny rubbish! xiao ming's classic joke, 那个艺人会结巴？

ans : 范范 范伟琦

time for myself!

so happy! its been quite some time since i spend some quiet moments on my own doing something i really enjoy. friday, not only had a nice chat wif both zhi wei & wei loong, which finally cleared up all e mess between us since AGM, also got e chance to help Bz Mags wif their 'thank you cards' for our past sponsorers! WAHAHAH!! i luv card making!! i luv paper cutting!! bet no one ever tot tt i'll be skilled in tt but i quite zai in it k! next time show yr my other proud creation! (last time no camera.... nv take them down... sob sob..) spend quite a few hours over e weekend to do up e 3 cards, sad to say... lost touch liao but still not bad la! at e very least, i enjoyed e short but peaceful moments of my mind since a very long while.

anw... gd luck bz mags! hope next year we all got more cards to do! yep!

a painful night... closing of e chapter

its been 6 years since i last cried, i did it again. reasons of e pain back den was still a mystery to me & to many others. Lim Kok Wee is a man that i may forgive, but never forget. this time e pain was just as excruciating as back den. it was a painful week & e final strike came in real hard. having reflections upon all that had happened, well, at e very least i tried all i could le. for those whom i disturbed or toes were being stepped on, i give u my deepest apology like i did for foot comm & zhi wei. i'm not 1 who dun admit to my own flaws or fault, really. till date, i had yet to forgive myself to walk out of foot comm or that i stepped upon their morale as i push forward wif e camp. i apologised to each & everyone of them at vivo city & i will do that to u someday. i felt ashame when i look at zhi wei, apologised to him not as a fren, but a going-vp-to-be in odac that i did not give him a chance to listen him out back den. for those whom i tot i had never affected, i'm really no saint, no super being, i fought a hard battle wif my own pride to learn not to hate. for this, i learn to respect zhi wei, wei loong & boss much more than before. i felt ashame when i compared myself upon them. at e very least, i c no hatred upon their actions & they moved on wif grace. as i always say to others, 'those who kao pei r e ones who care', for that i gif it to u all, cos at least i noe, u do care bout yr frens, i'll learn to let go. but disappointment comes in real hard for this part, never in my life that i tot i was a lousy fren, not worthy of yr faith or trust. i really tot i was yr fren too. prob this time, i'm wrong bout myself. ah guan once said, 'phua, stop selling your heart to those who wont sell theirs to u'. back den i din learn it, today i choose not to believe in it. i'm really grateful to all those who came up to me for e past week who asked, 'r u ok?', really, thats more than enuff to keep me going. i'm a stupid boy who would sell my heart to u juz for a packet of teh peng that u offer at my most tired moment. yali, really, i gif it to u. i cant promise u in how much i'll change or improve but i will. when u trust him to have his reason, i believe so too. i only hope to let him noe that my tears flows for a reason too. hopefully e chapter will close, its not gonna be like a new beginning, things dun go this way, but at least i'm closing my page & will be moving on. i've learned & i learn it hard that i'll take things wif grace.

veron once taught me in my 2nd camp that when i truly feel for my students, they will feel it too. sorry boss, think i din learn it well that time.

晴天 - 十月四日

今天，小龙走向小华说到，“我好比就像个救护箱，有我在，流再多的血也不怕！”

一阵暖风往小华心堂飘过...

阴天 - 十月三日

晴天，但心情却阴阴的...

今日，小华的心好痛好痛。

脑便问到：“喂！心， 为何你那么痛？”

“眼，流泪吧，我会好过点的”， 心反倒向眼说。

脑却说：“心，再忍忍吧，一切只会变得更好，到那时，就算是流血也值得的！”

今天，小雅为小华擦下好久好久都没流过的一滴泪。

desaru cycling 27th -29th september

yea! yet another fruitful trip for me! its really was an series of unfortunate event for this trip tt i led, starting fr rain till safety vehicle crisis... but... wif denis & ruyan, treasurer plus hon gen of odac, nothing cant be solve manz! really glad tt all e participants enjoyed themselves thru out, learned some new stuff abt cycling fr gavin, & got to noe jovin a little more better! e trip was filled wif laughter, sharing topics bout phantom & wild boar, a session of hynotising by ang mo, brent, who said, 'when i say e word beer, u would start scatching yr head & touching yr hair...' wtf... might as well say she will take off her clothes! nonetheless, all these added tasty flavours for e trip! thanks all!

look at kang hong... godlike...

they call me robbinhood

erm.... e horse not even moving...

for my fellow trip leaders, think was a trip for darling denis & me to re-cfm our frenship & working dynamics. think fr FOOT 07 till now, though me & xiao ru had been working closely, but finally back to ground work again, think she understand me much better this time & e synergy definitely getting stronger le! prolly end of e whole work yr we lead another trip again k! tt time, we gonna rock e world!