haha, in e midst of preparations for e 2nd last exam of mine, few things crop up, like finding jobs n kana pressured by FYP prof.. that i revisited some rules of mine... yep, somehow our lives r sadly filled wif limited choices, governed by the 3 Do's of life:
What I can do.
- the Realistic-Self
What I want to do.
- the Idealistic-Self
What I need to do.
- the Fabricated-Self
somehow, this 3 Do's simply juz contradicts in our lives, that we cant have all 3 of them at e same time, be it we like it a not. i can work, but i dun want to work but yet i need money, so i need to work, yet e job that i like doesn't pay me well, so e more i dread working, but i need e money cos i want to eat botak jones, so i do work that is high paying, with probs so hard to solve which huants me in my dreams in e middle of e night... bla bla bla
there's no way that i can find a job that i need to do nothing, but yet get paid for. we still have to make a choice rite? being e phua that u all know, my mia sia (名声，reputation) is of paramount. nothing is more important than that.
i'll choose to be e fabricated-self, even i dun like wat i'm doing. maybe i'm a born responsible boy, or maybe i juz wanna be viewed by others that i'm a responsible boy. nonetheless, regardless of e driving force, i choose wat i need to do.
doing wat i can do best, like watching drama, continously for days n nights, realistic? but i really want to juz lie on e bed in e air-con room n watch dramas, ideal? think about it, who e fuck in his rite mind would want to work? but we all have to rite? not as if my dad is Bill Gates, or my wife is some dubai princess that i can drink oil like water.. as much as i could, once i start working, get some cash, i'll want to travel around to see e world, maybe their moon really rounder... but i wun, cos i'll save e money to buy a car for e family, cos my parents r old, i need to provide them wif e comfort.
'with great power comes great responsibility' - peter parker (spiderman)
yep, so life is never really our choice... at e end of e day, we cant really tell wat's to be ahead of us, lucky i got all these 'Phua's Laws' to guide my life! 宁愿对不起自己，也不可对不起别人. when i was in yr 1, yali once said this to me, 'you think i like to talk to pple meh? its becos i have to ma, its part of e job of being a main commer..' - thanz, i really learned a lot.
there's no way that i can find a job that i need to do nothing, but yet get paid for. we still have to make a choice rite? being e phua that u all know, my mia sia (名声，reputation) is of paramount. nothing is more important than that.
i'll choose to be e fabricated-self, even i dun like wat i'm doing. maybe i'm a born responsible boy, or maybe i juz wanna be viewed by others that i'm a responsible boy. nonetheless, regardless of e driving force, i choose wat i need to do.
doing wat i can do best, like watching drama, continously for days n nights, realistic? but i really want to juz lie on e bed in e air-con room n watch dramas, ideal? think about it, who e fuck in his rite mind would want to work? but we all have to rite? not as if my dad is Bill Gates, or my wife is some dubai princess that i can drink oil like water.. as much as i could, once i start working, get some cash, i'll want to travel around to see e world, maybe their moon really rounder... but i wun, cos i'll save e money to buy a car for e family, cos my parents r old, i need to provide them wif e comfort.
'with great power comes great responsibility' - peter parker (spiderman)
yep, so life is never really our choice... at e end of e day, we cant really tell wat's to be ahead of us, lucky i got all these 'Phua's Laws' to guide my life! 宁愿对不起自己，也不可对不起别人. when i was in yr 1, yali once said this to me, 'you think i like to talk to pple meh? its becos i have to ma, its part of e job of being a main commer..' - thanz, i really learned a lot.
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