a painful night... closing of e chapter

its been 6 years since i last cried, i did it again. reasons of e pain back den was still a mystery to me & to many others. Lim Kok Wee is a man that i may forgive, but never forget. this time e pain was just as excruciating as back den. it was a painful week & e final strike came in real hard. having reflections upon all that had happened, well, at e very least i tried all i could le. for those whom i disturbed or toes were being stepped on, i give u my deepest apology like i did for foot comm & zhi wei. i'm not 1 who dun admit to my own flaws or fault, really. till date, i had yet to forgive myself to walk out of foot comm or that i stepped upon their morale as i push forward wif e camp. i apologised to each & everyone of them at vivo city & i will do that to u someday. i felt ashame when i look at zhi wei, apologised to him not as a fren, but a going-vp-to-be in odac that i did not give him a chance to listen him out back den. for those whom i tot i had never affected, i'm really no saint, no super being, i fought a hard battle wif my own pride to learn not to hate. for this, i learn to respect zhi wei, wei loong & boss much more than before. i felt ashame when i compared myself upon them. at e very least, i c no hatred upon their actions & they moved on wif grace. as i always say to others, 'those who kao pei r e ones who care', for that i gif it to u all, cos at least i noe, u do care bout yr frens, i'll learn to let go. but disappointment comes in real hard for this part, never in my life that i tot i was a lousy fren, not worthy of yr faith or trust. i really tot i was yr fren too. prob this time, i'm wrong bout myself. ah guan once said, 'phua, stop selling your heart to those who wont sell theirs to u'. back den i din learn it, today i choose not to believe in it. i'm really grateful to all those who came up to me for e past week who asked, 'r u ok?', really, thats more than enuff to keep me going. i'm a stupid boy who would sell my heart to u juz for a packet of teh peng that u offer at my most tired moment. yali, really, i gif it to u. i cant promise u in how much i'll change or improve but i will. when u trust him to have his reason, i believe so too. i only hope to let him noe that my tears flows for a reason too. hopefully e chapter will close, its not gonna be like a new beginning, things dun go this way, but at least i'm closing my page & will be moving on. i've learned & i learn it hard that i'll take things wif grace.

veron once taught me in my 2nd camp that when i truly feel for my students, they will feel it too. sorry boss, think i din learn it well that time.

晴天 - 十月四日

今天，小龙走向小华说到，“我好比就像个救护箱，有我在，流再多的血也不怕！”

一阵暖风往小华心堂飘过...

阴天 - 十月三日

晴天，但心情却阴阴的...

今日，小华的心好痛好痛。

脑便问到：“喂！心， 为何你那么痛？”

“眼，流泪吧，我会好过点的”， 心反倒向眼说。

脑却说：“心，再忍忍吧，一切只会变得更好，到那时，就算是流血也值得的！”

今天，小雅为小华擦下好久好久都没流过的一滴泪。

desaru cycling 27th -29th september

yea! yet another fruitful trip for me! its really was an series of unfortunate event for this trip tt i led, starting fr rain till safety vehicle crisis... but... wif denis & ruyan, treasurer plus hon gen of odac, nothing cant be solve manz! really glad tt all e participants enjoyed themselves thru out, learned some new stuff abt cycling fr gavin, & got to noe jovin a little more better! e trip was filled wif laughter, sharing topics bout phantom & wild boar, a session of hynotising by ang mo, brent, who said, 'when i say e word beer, u would start scatching yr head & touching yr hair...' wtf... might as well say she will take off her clothes! nonetheless, all these added tasty flavours for e trip! thanks all!

look at kang hong... godlike...

they call me robbinhood

erm.... e horse not even moving...

for my fellow trip leaders, think was a trip for darling denis & me to re-cfm our frenship & working dynamics. think fr FOOT 07 till now, though me & xiao ru had been working closely, but finally back to ground work again, think she understand me much better this time & e synergy definitely getting stronger le! prolly end of e whole work yr we lead another trip again k! tt time, we gonna rock e world!

berkelah falls 21st - 23rd september

its really been a long time since i blog, really got no time for myself these days... its been more than 3 months since e good old days of nua-ing at home watching K-drama or juz dazing outside e window listening to my itunes... rite from ATC till now, had been slaving myself wif odac matters, fr FOOT, welcome tea, firelight, main comm interview, AGM, subcomm interview, main comm datuk trip, trip planning for desaru to family day, life seems meaningful but seriously got no time at all for myself & frens who had been really close to me... till now, i yet to patch things up wif bok, its always at e back of my mind... wanted to do smthg for her on her bday but yet again missed e chance (15th sept, happened to be family day). wanted to buy yuemin a dinner for her bday too but was held up in ubin for firelight (15th aug) really sorry... sch work been piling like old newspaper, glad tt i had all my quizes before this recess week, at least i studied for them & really catch up quite a significant bit. finally, e recess break comes, went wif bizmag, pub & log to berkelah falls on its very 1st 2 days. though it was my 2nd visit to e trek, it is still as challenging as before, esp. when i brought e 2 gals up alone. its smthg new to me, was really scare tt if anything will to happen to myself or them on e way up, al i could do is to '%&(*^(%&#&'. phew, thank goodness tt everything went smoothly & it was definitely a worthwhile risk to take when i c e 2 gals really enjoyed themselves wif e rest up at e summit..

celebrating moon cake festival at berkelah! really look damn eerie la!



classic :)

odac family day 15 september

finally, we had our long awaited family day! wootz! damn freaking fun! really gd job done by adsports for coming up wif all e progs in such a short period of planning period! this is e very 1st time tt after e AGM & when all e comms r formed up tt e comm members get to meet one another. really hope tt they enjoyed themselves & get to noe each one better!

'where's e fucking bottle! knn! they so free to hide so deep meh?'



horny jovin surrounded by all his pf gals!



damn song to watch denis suffer!



winning cries!!




dunno y e captain's ball become indian dance...

really damn proud of adsports! progs was so nicely done tt there wasn't any room for sian-ness

so glad tt even e laojiaos enjoyed themselves totally!

presenting to u.... e odac 12th comm!

adsports



foot



biz mag



pub & log



trek



pumpfest

think boss had really worked hard these days tt we tried our very best to give our comm members wateva which we did not had for e past year. really hope tt e synergy we created now would last thru e whole work year & even till e 13th & 14th comm! (am i too ambitious?)

xueling's 20th bday 11 september

seriously... wat a day to be born... sept 11... haha! but for tt irritating bimbo of e 12th comm, we planned out a perfect surprise for her, to ambush her on a run round e sch (to-be-accomplish by yali who wanna take e chance to cut fats) at hall 5. due to unforeseen circumstances, mission was a total flop, but still, fat bimbo was thrown into e Nanyang Lake. i really fear for e future of our nation as our teacher-to-be is really not tt smart & believe tt we gonna throw her a bday party at e lake. getting her wet was juz not enuff, so we 'pond' more & more... wat a bad idea... anw... gonna post more pics of our mission ‘襟猪笼’when i get hold of them!

12th main comm datuk trip 1st - 2nd september

wootz! 12th main comm embarked on their very 1st journey le! despite e many hic-ups tt we faced thru out e trip due to e poorly manage transport system in e northern lands, datuk trip is definitely fruitful where e 12th comm get to noe one another at a greater deth. bet many of e 12th comm brought back home tonnes of new skills imparted by fat fat eugene. but really thankful of him to come down to join & educate us during e whole journey! i dunno bout others, but i really liked mei shan, though she's new to e grp but i juz felt comfortable wif her in e comm though others claim tt she's a little tactless in her words & stuff... but i juz like her straightforward character wif tt stintch of arrogance & confidence when she conduct herself. she will go far, definitely. though it was not my 1st visit to gunung datuk, but was my 1st time to e summit, woah, really spectacular! think after all e technical lessons tt we had, all of us will be more prepared in leading our 1st trip for odac as a main commer. really needa thank xueling for all her efforts in keeping e trek lively thru out. she's really a background noise, like a kid's radio station blabbering non-stop!

will be posting more pics soon! sneak preview of weiling & mike! hello mike? tot u already got a dunno wat tea to quench yr thirst liao?

23rd dinner 31st august

delicacy fr basil alcove at fortune centre (middle road)

its really been quite a long while since i met up wif my batch boys. had a small gathering wif guan, andy, thio, nolan, rome, bb, quek & sam. din really wanna share wif them wat i've been doing, esp. after guan said 'phua! if u r joining odac pls dun call me again!'. really enjoyed e outing as for e past few weeks, peeps tt i talk, work, play & hang ard wif r all fr odac & conversations topic never seems to move out of it. really miss e kpkb days wif my darling batch boys! guan still as dickgusting wif his choice of words, andy trying hard to sustain his long dist. relationship wif debra, thio & nolan still as skinny, rome claims tt his getting married soon (dunno who's e suay bitch), bb still as lost, quek & sam sticky as ever! cant wait for another batch boys gathering but hopefully i can make it...

so happy!!

wahahah!! so happy after talking to tung today! he said tt he really liked e way tt e main comm meeting is conducted! i too think so! haha! e subcomm r coming in le! everyone is stepping up so as to fulfil their role either as a comm head or SPO. think in no time, everyone will shine like gems! wat 11th comm zai! 12th comm more zai can! WAHAHAHA!! (think i cfm kana shoot after u all read this! but i dun care! where got such logic tt e VP dun support his own comm de!) haha! so proud of boss (munir) too! when he say tt when a leader does mistake, he shd be e 1st to apologise, damn cool la! haha darling boss, for this i gif u 1 kiss next time k! whoeva dares touch my boss i make sure i poke u hard in yr ass tt wateva goes in comes out fr yr dick! everything is on auto-jalan mode le! FOOT will be fine wif mike & weiling, Adsports all rdy wif their activities, Trek comm all out for recce! hmm.. left Pumpfest.... dear meishan ar... i dunno how long i can gif u this benefit of doubt, pls join back e team soon can... haha! but really like jovin, his promising & more... juz hope tt yr partner dun afk for too long... pub & bz mags seems to be coping fine too, log under e mighty hands of wei 哥s! hahaha! think boss & me now can sit back relac jack liao!